25 Jun 09 - 1220am

Its the wee hours of Thursday, 25 Jun. Why aren't me asleep?

Well, I dun know the answer myself. I felt awake; my mind was awake, but my body wasnt.
I suddenly missed some of the tracks from the long-shelfed Kenny G's Breathless sitting on my CD rack. I took out the dusty CD and played it on the 5.1 that I had for my birthday this year from my bros and sisters in hall. The pleasant tunes from the saxophone smoothes the entire soul. Well, its just a simple relaxation after dinner at 1100pm?

Just glanced thru some nice photos of my frens on a recent trip. I envied. Just looking at those pictures made me wish Im there. But well, in life, theres many a times, we shant compare. Anyway, I really enjoyed those carefree and happy pictures posted by them. I hope mine will come soon, well, but things are not as easy on my side as I had little Chloe at home. I can afford to be sick or quarantined, but not her. Well, actually I intend to save as well, so didnt make any plans, so little Chloe, its not your fault as well. Ah Gu cant wait to give you a big huggy tomorrow moring before he leaves for work.

Hmm, well, whats not yours, is not yours. Perhaps, thats something I grown to believe in. Well, what we have thought of or wished, might not turn out to be what we wanted. Our own confidence can be our own fall and lead to greater disappointments. Well, as the saying goes, Disappointments come with expectations. Im not too sure what this meant, till I grow up to understand this. Well, perhaps as someone who puts in effort to make things right, this can be a setback, or would I say, a little psychological wound that might recover over sometime when things are on the right track.

Well, at times, its really nice to receive than to give. Perhaps, as what I have always told VC, how nice would it be, to just sit down at a coffee house and watch the day goes by. But unfortunately, not everyone has the luxury to do so, and well neither am I complaining. Im happy that my life is filled. Tiredness makes the brain does less work, cos its too tired to venture far, other than hoping that it gets some rest aka sleep.

Well, I believe that I ought to be treated more fairly. But not contradicting myself, nothing is fair.

Nevertheless, I have lesser and lesser grumbles after appreciating the vulnerability of life. Everything is fair. Everything is meant to be in the way it is, the family we are born in; the people we are with; the frens we have; the job we are in; our wealth; our health and everything.

Well, cherish and appreciate whatever we have, at this current moment. For those with your loved ones, right now, send a sms to her/him and tell her/him how much he/ she meant to you. For singles, you can always send an sms to your siblings/ mummy/ daddy in appreciation as well. Well, perhaps Im gonna to do that on my way to work tomorrow. Im sure Im gonna get killed by smsing them at 1250am.

Its the 10th time Track 15 of Kenny G's Breatheless has been looping on the player. I guess its also time for me to tug in, perhaps with Track 15 looping till the first ray of sun shines into my room...

Take Care all and have a good weekend.