Thursday, December 31, 2009
New Year 2010?
Hmm, I guess there are many things in 2009, ups and downs. Well, whats most important, is to look forward to 2010 and I believe that it will definitely be a better year then 2009. Im hoping for many things to happen, and a couple of wishes.
Hmm, ooo, my sweetie's birthday just passed and Im wishing her best of everything as well, be it health, career, family...hmm...I guess so far things should be going well for her.
Happy Birthday Sweetie.
Happy New Year to all,
Monday, November 23, 2009
Someone...
Well, it has been a good weekend getaway with my family and her. Though its short, but I guessed that everyone enjoyed.
Its then today that she went to see a doctor cos shes not well. It is only then when I felt the importance of her and that her health matters to me as well. Im worried if her medical condition worsen, that had resulted her in her tiriness and lower immunity. But Im sure she will get well soon with all the optimistism. Im confident that I will bring her to the route of recovery.
Shes really such a sweetheart to me as well. No specified reasons. I just love her. Everytime she does a cute wink to me, my entire heart shrunk and thats like the antidote to the entire day of shaggness, stress or whatever shit that the day got.
I miss her everyday and never did I expect myself to miss someone that much till she stepped into my circle.
I know that she will recover soon, cos there are so much activites and places that we have to visit together. Im sure my crappiness, jokes will bring her health as well and happiness.
Im in love with you.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I Think I Like This Song...The Tempo...
sun rays come down
as seen when they hit the ground
children spinning around
tilthey fall down down down
i wait for you
its been two hours now
and youre still somewhere in town
your dinners getting cold
i rest my case
you are always this late
and you know how much i hatewaiting around, round, round
bitter heart, bitter heart
tries to keep it all inside
bitter heart, bitter heart
shadows will help you try to hide
bitter heart my bitter heart
is getting just a little fragile
bitter heart, bitter heart
of mine
and then you come
and tell me the same reason
that you did yesterday
so tell me whats her name
du du du du ~~
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Reality
Well, its natural and there are so many similarities between us.
Im just comfortable sharing things with her.
I guess that I would really have to believe in fate that brings 2 persons together, especially when 2 persons whom are looking at the same direction.
A contented smile.
Let the heart rule.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Whats Not Meant To Be Yours...Will Not Be Yours...
Hows life? Well, its month-end as usual. A month whizz by, one after another. Nothing has changed and its still the same. Im still the old me and so are the work.
Am I foolish at times? I think I do.
Well, sometimes its really not worth being nice. It just make yourself more tiring.
At times, really wish that perhaps a short term secondment to somewhere further from here maybe a good thing afterall. At least, you should be able to tell then, who really cherish you, who really appreciates your presence.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
What a Filled Day.
Well, some thoughts went pass my mind...
Am I a passer-by? Well, its a long time. I will be happy as well if things went well for them.
As for me, I will carry on, as usual, with my life. Work, Frens, Family...
At least, I have had a good dream, if its a dream.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
So Near Yet So Far. So Strange Yet So Familiar.
I dunno too. It just came into my mind naturally.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
An Extract from SK....
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
End of Block Leave
Well, lets see how things go tomorrow. As usual, I should be buying in a cuppa and a toast, and clearing my mails. I supposed that my mailbox is not filled as of now since I have no one to cover what Im doing.
Well, lets have a little faith.
Perhaps, Im just a Train, That Had Passed By the Empty Station...
Felt sad, having the exact feelings 4 years ago. A good 4 years and things are returning.
Well, things may not be exactly that bad, but well, I kept reminding myself not to think about it.
"Someone" knew whats this about, and that "Someone" is my inner self.
I should be ok.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
A Funfilled Weekend, Packed with Many Thoughts as Well.....
So lets do a mid-recall of what I have done for the entire 4 days of leaves?
Perhaps I do really have short term memory, it takes me a while just to do a recap.
Tue - First day of Leave, went of a sumptous breakfast with Wei, Sis, Mum and our little Princess Chloe. Well, everything went slow. The entire afternoon was a slack.
Wed - Went to town with Sis, Wei and Chloe. Due to the irritating F1 race, so many road closures that forced us to detour back to Parkway Parade for shopping. As for the night, I went over to Tampines for a casual window shopping after dinner. Well, I got to look at things which I wanted and errands that I completed.
Thu - Brought Chloe and Mum for Brunch at Downtown East. Mee Siam and Taiwan Mee Sua was superb, though they are just some simple food. Hibernated the entire afternoon at home. This I remembered.
Fri - The most fun-packed day of the entire week. Early in the morning, I got hotcakes for my little princess at home. Well, lunch-time was a good 3 hours of Kboxing at Kallang Leisure Park with a fren. Well, it was good though it somehow brought back many old old memories for me. As in the afternoon, I bladed at East Coast Park for a good 2 hours. Well, but I guess the cup of bubble tea that I had after the blading session had made my blading effort a waste. lOl. Dinnering with Meng, YT and FR was a good one at Marche over in Vivo. Well, I would say that this is the most packed day of my entire few days block as I reached home, simply tired, but happy.
Throughout these events, my mind didnt go into "hibernating" mode either. In instances, there are many flashbacks of pasts, images of present, and painted-scences of future. Poor Brain. At times, I didnt even know how to translate all these thoughts into words. Perhaps, it all boils down many a times to a simple word "Trust".
I felt history was repeating itself on me...Im wondering...
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Long Overdue...
Im the same. Same old, crappy me.
Time really flies. Its like the last quarter of the year. Well, what to do. Thats life. Havent really had the luxury lately to blog since the last as most of the time, I am pretty busy with work.
Finally, a short break. This week is my block leave. A short break away from office. Its just that great.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Im Not An Anger Bag
When they are happy, they wun't even think who was the one who is always sending smses to all of them to ask.
I decided not to do this rotten job anymore. I have a pride. Shall leave that in me.
There was a mini gathering yesterday and they initiated to go KL. Fine. Mr P asked me yesterday nite about the trip. I cant confirm, though I told him I dun feel like going to KL. I asked him about some details etc, when they going etc... I told thats a norm. Perhaps I should tell him that "Perhaps not KL?" and fullstop.
What I got in return? He told me that Im wasting his time. Fxxx man. Common, do you tell this to your fren? Is this the right attitude? I really think I dun deserve this shit. Why are everyone really treating me like a bag to vent their anger? P, K's gf, come on, Im a human too and I do have feelings.
I told him that he is rude in saying that when he ended our conversation in msn by just leaving the chatroom. I dun understand how he is able to do a frontline job with this kind of bloody attitude, even to his frens?
This morning, I received an offline message as well,
Mr P: ya no worries..
Mr P: the rest didnt even bother to ask you... they even tell me not to try...
Mr P: is that i thought we are friends so long liao..
Mr P: i dont want to miss you out for our gatherings
Mr P: looks like im really wrong in doing that
Mr P: think i ask for it myself...
Well, so what? I should thank him or what? I really dunno as well. Well, of course there are things holding me back as well, but thats too P&C to be shared. Its ok, God knows.
Perhaps as long as we know what we are doing, and not sorry to anyone in anyways, I think thats the best consolation.
Perhaps, "I think I ask for it myself too for organising events and gatherings for this bunch of JC Frens."
Utterly disappointed.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Updates.
Well, nothing much happened, just that life is getting busier. Time flies and its Quarter Month again, which means the extra reports that I have to prepare. S***
Worst, theres an AVP who is leaving and I innocently was 'volunteered' to take over 3 of her existing appointments. Wat? Well, and all these appointments really took up a significant bit of my time.
Well, I think Im not having career satisfaction.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
A Sweet Yet Funny Story
that a woman ever had.
The winner described her worst first date experience. There was
absolutely no question as to why her tale took the prize!
She said it was midwinter... snowing and quite cold...and the guy had
taken her skiing in the mountains outside Salt Lake City , Utah .
It was a day trip (no overnight). They were strangers, after all, and
truly had never met before. The outing was fun, the skiing great, the
coffee hot. The day was uneventful until they were headed home late that
afternoon.
They were driving back down the mountain, when she gradually began to
realize that she should not have had that extra latte.
They were about an hour away from anywhere with a rest room and, to top
it off, they were in the middle of nowhere!
Her companion recognized her discomfort, and suggested she try to hold
it, which she did for a while.
Unfortunately, because of the heavy snow and slow going, there came a
point where she told him that he had better stop and let her go beside
the road, or it would be the front seat of his car.
They stopped and she quickly crawled out beside the car, yanked her
pants down and started.
In the deep snow she didn't have good footing, so she let her butt rest
against the rear fender to steady herself.
Her companion stood on the side of the car watching for traffic and
indeed was a real gentleman and refrained from peeking. All she could
think about was the relief she felt despite the rather embarrassing
nature of the situation. Upon finishing however, she soon became aware
of another sensation.
As she bent to pull up her pants, the young lady discovered her buttocks
were firmly glued against the car's fender!
Thoughts of tongues frozen to poles immediately came to mind as she
attempted to disengage her flesh from the icy metal. It was quickly
apparent that she had a brand new problem due to the extreme cold.
Horrified by her plight and yet aware of the humor of the moment, she
answered he r date's concerns about 'what is taking so long' with a
reply that indeed, she was 'freezing her butt off' and in need of some
assistance!
He came around the car as she tried to cover her self with her sweater
and then, as she looked imploringly into his eyes, he burst out
laughing.
She too, got the giggles and when they finally managed to compose
themselves, they assessed her dilemma..
Obviously, as hysterical as the situation was, they also were faced with
a real problem. Both agreed it would take something hot to free her
chilly cheeks from the grip of the icy metal!
Thinking about what had gotten her into the predicament in the first
place, both quickly realized that there was only one way to get her
free.
So, as she looked the other way, her first-time date proceeded to unzip
his pants and pee her bottom off the fender.
As the audience screamed in laughter, she took the Tonight Show prize
hands down. Or perhaps that should be 'pants down.'
'Did you ever see the young man again?' asked Mr. Leno.
'I married him,' was the reply.
'He's sitting right here next to me.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Interesting Quote...
Today, he shared with me something I thought that its pretty interesting, hence wanna post it here...
人生只有那么短短的一次,所以一定要享受。。。就好像女孩子一样。。
不可以错过一个。。 不然你就失去了
Haha. What say u?
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
25 Jun 09 - 1220am
Well, I dun know the answer myself. I felt awake; my mind was awake, but my body wasnt.
I suddenly missed some of the tracks from the long-shelfed Kenny G's Breathless sitting on my CD rack. I took out the dusty CD and played it on the 5.1 that I had for my birthday this year from my bros and sisters in hall. The pleasant tunes from the saxophone smoothes the entire soul. Well, its just a simple relaxation after dinner at 1100pm?
Just glanced thru some nice photos of my frens on a recent trip. I envied. Just looking at those pictures made me wish Im there. But well, in life, theres many a times, we shant compare. Anyway, I really enjoyed those carefree and happy pictures posted by them. I hope mine will come soon, well, but things are not as easy on my side as I had little Chloe at home. I can afford to be sick or quarantined, but not her. Well, actually I intend to save as well, so didnt make any plans, so little Chloe, its not your fault as well. Ah Gu cant wait to give you a big huggy tomorrow moring before he leaves for work.
Hmm, well, whats not yours, is not yours. Perhaps, thats something I grown to believe in. Well, what we have thought of or wished, might not turn out to be what we wanted. Our own confidence can be our own fall and lead to greater disappointments. Well, as the saying goes, Disappointments come with expectations. Im not too sure what this meant, till I grow up to understand this. Well, perhaps as someone who puts in effort to make things right, this can be a setback, or would I say, a little psychological wound that might recover over sometime when things are on the right track.
Well, at times, its really nice to receive than to give. Perhaps, as what I have always told VC, how nice would it be, to just sit down at a coffee house and watch the day goes by. But unfortunately, not everyone has the luxury to do so, and well neither am I complaining. Im happy that my life is filled. Tiredness makes the brain does less work, cos its too tired to venture far, other than hoping that it gets some rest aka sleep.
Well, I believe that I ought to be treated more fairly. But not contradicting myself, nothing is fair.
Nevertheless, I have lesser and lesser grumbles after appreciating the vulnerability of life. Everything is fair. Everything is meant to be in the way it is, the family we are born in; the people we are with; the frens we have; the job we are in; our wealth; our health and everything.
Well, cherish and appreciate whatever we have, at this current moment. For those with your loved ones, right now, send a sms to her/him and tell her/him how much he/ she meant to you. For singles, you can always send an sms to your siblings/ mummy/ daddy in appreciation as well. Well, perhaps Im gonna to do that on my way to work tomorrow. Im sure Im gonna get killed by smsing them at 1250am.
Its the 10th time Track 15 of Kenny G's Breatheless has been looping on the player. I guess its also time for me to tug in, perhaps with Track 15 looping till the first ray of sun shines into my room...
Take Care all and have a good weekend.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
A Fresh New Week
The clock reads 1250am, Monday, 15 Jun 09. Half the year is over, issnt that real fast?
Anyway, I had a good weekend, though I didnt manage to catch the show I wanted to catch, and I think, its going off the screens soon. =( Well Well.
Friday evening was good. Managed to catch up with SF after quite some time. Its a nice catchup sessions. Perhaps as we grow older, I kinda appreciate the people around me and such simple catchup sessions after a long and tired day at work. Though it may be just a coffee in a run down coffeeshop; thats good enough for me.
Saturday was pretty slow and as usual, the weekly catchup, maintenance and washing of Fred's Jetta and Whitey in the morning. Darn, it rained and we quickly dashed for shelter to save the morning effort. Terrible and unpredictable weather it seems. As for the afternoon, accompanied dad to Ubi to check out the Avante's pricing. Hmm, seems like his ageing ride is giving him some problem...Saturday's evening was fruitful as we celebrated Ah Tong's Birthday. Well, its really ages since I went Orchard. Its different and many things have changed. I think I should spend an entire afternoon shopping there one day. Perhaps this Saturday?
Sunday was fruitful, though tired. Kicked off from an sms from HJ to ask me if I wanna go Autobacs. Well, I went and led her there since shes not too sure of the way. Well, she got her white cashcard cover and I got my additional SABELT for the back belts. Happy! Cos I had been waiting for it for so long and finally. Its complete. Well, went back to work after that, as usual to clear some outstanding shits. Ooo, late afternoon, had a really good talk with this aunty at Orient Credit at Tai Keng. Will talk more on this.
Can I continue my Sunday's details on another day? Im abit tired now.
Good Night to you. Sweet Dreams.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Sengkeat...
Thanks Cyber.
Thanks to all the God and Goddess for giving me a nice family and some nice friends.
Im so tired that I wanna go bed.
Before 12am, theres a rare thingy for me.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Birthday Wishes...
Im quite sure this will be a good year for me, hopefully.
Aside, why am I not sleeping, though Im pretty tired...?
Its a tough fight.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Mon, No No, Its Tuesday...
Well, perhaps when we start to take things positively, things and issues are less harsh. Well, hope thats a comforting way of looking at things. Haha, well, as usual, we, humans seldom practise what we preached.
Hmm, something interesting to share....
Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
Interesting, issnt it?
Thursday, May 21, 2009
=)
Apart from work, is nothing but I guess still boils down to work.
Well, Im always the clown to my frens too, perhaps making others laugh, though I might look silly but well, making others happy is something nice I thought.
Hmm, just getting more and more vex recently.
I shall give an excuse....its due to Work.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
15 May...
Anyway, its always nice to share with someone on that little of your life. Or, in other way, know that little of someone's life.
Well. Im tired. Shall go to bed.
Good News is that I heard that Boss will not be at work tomorrow.
Its Party Time...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Time Flies...
This month, many things are due. Insurance, Road Tax, 10k Servicing. Wah!, think about it, really many many things. Well, but thoughout this 1 year, it has brought to me many convenience and as well, companionship. I feel happy cleaning Whitey and ensuring that its clean inside and outside as well. Well, you can say Im fussy, but I just want it to be clean; as clean as its White-ness.
Sorry Whitey, I cant give you a set of new "shoes" and bigger ones, though I thought I could. Well, times are bad and I do not have bonus this year. So bear with it. Anyway, the current fours are still working and lets not waste it till it looses its grip kiez. Im sure you will look nicer with bigger shoes, though currently you look weaker when I put you side by side with Fred's Jetta.
And now that he lowered, haha, Im sure you arent as fierce as Freddy's pet, but Im sure you are a tame one.
Guess that this year, I could only give you a set of films from Tint Master? Let me think about it.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Tue, 5 May 09
What happen?
Friday, May 1, 2009
1st of May - Labour Day
Mummy's day is coming in 2 weeks time, but as we do not want to squeeze with the crowds, we decided to celebrate earlier. Today, we had lunch at Hotel Royal. Hmm, it was pretty nice and suits my mum's appetite of course. She loves to eat buffets and enjoys the variety of local food, though she doesnt really eat alot.
Hmm, lately, I can see the sudden increase in the amount of white hair on her. Hmm, perhaps after she has taken the responsibility to look after Baby Chloe, and got to sacrifice her sleep on and off just to wake up when Chloe cries. Hmm, its really not easy. Many times, in the wee hours, I was woken up by Chloe's cries, and I would see that Mum got to dragged herself up and make milk for Chloe, say 1am, 4am, 6am that kind of timings?....Its really not easy. I will try to wake up and carry Chloe, so that Mum can make her the milk with greater ease.
At times, Chloe does understand as well. I would talk to her and ask her to be patient while ah ma is making her milk. She seems to quieten after a while.
On the other hand, I can feel that Mum is happy looking after Chloe as well. She loves her alot too, just like the way she loves us. Chloe is fortunate to have a granny who quits her job just to look after her. Well, my mum just seems to have her ways with Chloe. My sis should also be glad that my mum dotes her and Chloe alot. =)
As for work, its month-end again, which means peak again, and also the outstanding project. Sun got to work again, but somehow Im kinda used to working on Suns. I felt lost at times when I didnt go back to work on Suns. I guess that this is not something good? lOl
Well, ok lah. Just gonna make my life more fulfilling.
=)
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Saturday, 19 Apr Aftermath =)
Had a mini gathering with some of my colleagues for dinner and talk cock session. Well, its simple and good, less the bad and humid weather thats keep making us so uncomfy.
Tomorrow, I think I will be back in office again to clear some of the remaining UAT issues and darn, its really alot of things and Im held back.
At times, Im really frustratated with the darn project. But than, what can I do?
Ok, work aside.
Some P&C stuffs, which Im not supposed to post. Generally, life is like that. We dun get what we want; and often, we get what we dun want.
Theres no perfect world.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Poor Chloe.
Guess she had hurt the little small nose of her. :(
And Im sick. Perhaps I had caught the rain while I was rushing to see her...
Brave it on, the battle in the week still continues...
User Acceptance Tests, entire craps.
Some Updates...
Hmm, long time since I last blogged. Perhaps, life has been so hectic for e past month that didn't leave me some time to blog, or issit that I am too tired to pen down some messages. Well and have been wanting to write something as a result, better dun waste time as I am writing away now on the train to work.
Oh, today mark the start of the monthly peak. Well, but I guess in terms of hours wise, we are slightly better than audit, in a way that we leave office at 10 plus if its peak. What to do, times are bad and employers are the king now. Well, I guess this month should be better than last when I spent almost everyday OTing. Hmm, not mentioning all the Feb Suns were spent in office at least, trying to recon a quarter report. Well, Im so stressed rather than sad that my weekend is burnt. I just wanted to get the report done and get it off my chest. Sigh, due to the turnover, we are made to do some reports which are done by our AVPs previously. I would that admit that our experience is not that fruitful to enable us to look at things fast enough. Well, not too sure if I had done correctly as well, at here, none review our work, so its independence. Ooo, I had spent 3 days last week attending a course at SMU. I would say that its great being in campus and see all the young people around. Well, at least so much better than back in office whereby 2 years ago, Im the youngest guy here. Today, I think so far Im still the youngest rookie around. Ok, wishing my audit frens to hang on as well.
After the lengthy para on work, now is the miscellaneous. Hmmm, what's under this section. Hmm, ok, I am having Chloe's company everyday after work. Well, she can be a nice little princess but than, a naughty one as well when she doesn't want to go to bed. But still, shes my lovely niece.
As for leisure, I couldn't recall much, less the times I met up with frens for cuppa and Sat dinners. Its been a long time since I caught up with frens in weekdays which I used to previously. Perhaps, just do not have the luxury now as well. We work 6 days a week, just for a day of rest and relaxation. Hmmm...
Its Mar, time flies when chinese new year celebrations seems yesterday. Its a quarter of the year. Well, guess most of us really hope that the market will improve gradually as it has impacted us more or less in a way or another. Well, so what had resulted in all this nonsenses happening. Well, its all man with their deeds. People started to weigh their needs and wants in this shaky circumstances. Well, we wouldn't know when our names may be on the chopping board too.
Till then...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
The gal whom always made me smile....
Saturday, January 3, 2009
1st Day of Work in 2009.
Some thoughts to pen down.
Resolutions for 2009? Hope that it will be better than 2008 and I am aiming to achieve career satisfaction by at least the 2nd Quarter of 2009?
For health; Im hoping that I stay as healthy and maintain my gym regime weekly and increase the number of visits if I have the time. Weekdays definitely are really too tired after work and all I yearn for is dinner usually.
For Friendship; hope all my friends are happy as well. Oh, congratulations to 2 of my buddies; CBS and Eugene. Gambatte!
For Family; hope everyone is well at home and healthy. Little Chloe be good and all harms be away from her. Frankly, nowadays when shes not around, I do really miss her alot. Shes my Sis's sweetie pie and our central of attraction. Shes really so adorable and I cant wait to bring her out when shes older. Ok, mum is leaving her job to take care of Chloe. Hmm, not too sure if this is a wise move, but than; guess shes happy taking care of her grand-daughter and showering her with all her love and care.
Haha, oh yah, Dad is also so fond of Chloe and he seems to be able to make Chloe laugh everytimes. (Im only successful, depending on Chloe's mood, haha)
Lets all hope the year 2009 will be great for all of us.





